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I really am glad that I got the position. I haven’t been a part of Dragonboat for more than a few months and the team is placing trust in me to take on this role as a DBOT. It really isn’t the most prestigious position nor does it mean I’ll be guaranteed to be a future officer for the team, but what matters to me about being a DBOT is that I’ve found a group of people that I know trust me.
I’ve posted before about a time where I was absolutely denied a position that meant so much to me. I was crushed that, for no explanation, I couldn’t be trusted to lead a group and show them what I could offer. I was put down before I was given any chance to get anything done and let people know I could do it.
Time has passed, I never really got over it. All I could manage to keep from that situation is a sort of distrust of people. And to be honest, I don’t know how I’d feel about my team now if I didn’t get this position. I think I would stay committed and still try hard, like what I’ve done before, but I think I’d lose my passion for the sport, because it’s just painful to deal with this situation again.
I’ve been told I can keep my cool and deal with stress well. I can definitely present myself to other people that way, but inside I stressed so much about classes, grades, practices, meetings, projects and all else going on in my life that I broke down recently. My dragonboat coach was there to listen, talking to him all about the stress I’ve had and all about getting this position. He listened and was there for me. Later that night, he calls me and tells me I got the position.
I’m still stressing out over all that’s going on, but I know I can manage it all. My team has backed me up before. They’ll back me up when things get hard again. They let me have this position, so all I can do now is show them that I’m there to back them up, too.
I got the position as one of the DBOT’s: Dragonboat Officer-in-Training.
I’ll have to include this with my other positions as ICS Major Rep, computer science tutor, and my role as a bad guy in a huge production for Chinese Cultural Night.
On top of classes, projects, homework and studying.
Oh, and of course Dragonboat practices. And workouts. And conditioning.
And having a social life. And sleeping enough.
Say hi to Faust.
I have not been this stressed out in such a long time. I’ll show you why.
Monday: 8am workout, class 11-5, 8:30 meeting, 9-11 rehearsal
Tuesday: Class at 9:30, workout, class at 2, group homework at 4, tutoring from 7-10
Wednesday: class 11-4, dance workout at 5, interview at 7
Thursday: class 9:30, help out at career fair til class at 2, group homework til meeting.
Being on campus all day, every day this week. I really don’t know if I can handle this.
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The tattoo has healed over pretty nicely, but the skin isn’t quite back to normal yet. Anyway, this quarter has been treating me well, minus getting sick due to two hours of sleep then a difficult dragonboat practice.
And I met a cute boy in class. And I talked to him. Now I just wonder if he’s actually gay. Things are good anyway.
I already answered lust, pride and envy, so I’mma skip those…
Gluttony: Tamales. When it’s Christmas time, I find myself eating like 10 a day.
Greed: Fooling around with the one person I know shouldn’t be. It’s just so fun :3
