I really am glad that I got the position. I haven’t been a part of Dragonboat for more than a few months and the team is placing trust in me to take on this role as a DBOT. It really isn’t the most prestigious position nor does it mean I’ll be guaranteed to be a future officer for the team, but what matters to me about being a DBOT is that I’ve found a group of people that I know trust me. 

I’ve posted before about a time where I was absolutely denied a position that meant so much to me. I was crushed that, for no explanation, I couldn’t be trusted to lead a group and show them what I could offer. I was put down before I was given any chance to get anything done and let people know I could do it. 

Time has passed, I never really got over it. All I could manage to keep from that situation is a sort of distrust of people. And to be honest, I don’t know how I’d feel about my team now if I didn’t get this position. I think I would stay committed and still try hard, like what I’ve done before, but I think I’d lose my passion for the sport, because it’s just painful to deal with this situation again.

I’ve been told I can keep my cool and deal with stress well. I can definitely present myself to other people that way, but inside I stressed so much about classes, grades, practices, meetings, projects and all else going on in my life that I broke down recently. My dragonboat coach was there to listen, talking to him all about the stress I’ve had and all about getting this position. He listened and was there for me. Later that night, he calls me and tells me I got the position.

I’m still stressing out over all that’s going on, but I know I can manage it all. My team has backed me up before. They’ll back me up when things get hard again. They let me have this position, so all I can do now is show them that I’m there to back them up, too.